First Blog of 2012

Not sure why I'm even starting this blog right now... I guess I just got on here and realized it's been months since I posted. So so much has happened just since October... already going on 5 months ago. Right now I'm chillin' listening to some Masta Ace... track called "Beautiful". Just the word alone makes me think of my girl... who is in the other room unhappy. I guess that I'm being kind of a buzz kill tonight. It's Saturday night and she's flying high on energy from the Bio Energy day in a booth at the Calgary Health and Wellness show. I'm so proud of her and I mean it! I just haven't really jumped up and down like I feel like I'm expected to be doing right now. Why? Don't know. I should be! I just got given a fist full of dollars from a drywall hustle I just completed. Still full of the dust in my hair and eyes as I type about it. Would love to bath and soak it off but, there is no hot water. I ran the last of it into a bath and like a gentleman gave that bath to Laine. She said she was gonna sauna, so, I figured... why not let her take a nice hot dip in a nice oily scented bath for a min before her sauna... then I guess she decided to NOT sauna and just stay in the bath. Now it's cold, oily, full of all day Laine. Oh well, I offered it. Wish I just wasn't so dusty and filthy.

I kinda wasted my saturday. I was committed so spending my day at Laine's mom's helping Tim with the floor, but, it was a one man job and I didn't end up getting to my own gig (drywall) until 3 something. Rushed and sanded my ass off just to make it on time to pick Laine up at the Bio E show (which I was half an hour late) and now 3 hours later, I'm still talking about her day and her accomplishments with a bunch of cash in a jar, no wardrobe and dust in my eyes.

It's Saturday night and I am in the house. Been in the city 8 months and have not seen the inside of a night club yet. I don't really feel that I can make plans to go out without my girl expecting that she and I are going together. In the entirety of our relationship I can think of two times we partied separate. Don't get me wrong... I LOVE my woman and I love hanging with her, we have a blast, however... what does guy time look like for me at this point? Work?

I'm listening to this Masta Ace track on repeat and loving it. Really effin Loving it. He's gonna be at Hi Fi on Wednesday and I wanna go. I mentioned it... she said, "Let's Go"... I guess, I'll go to the night club with my girl. Is it disrespectful that I'm not jumping for joy? I mean, I've gone to the night club with my girl on many occasions and had a blast... and represented true (including not dodging kisses, holding hands and whatever). So, if I wanna go with a guy or alone, is that disrespectful? WTF? Anyways, fuck thinking about it. I need an entirely new wardrobe... we brought in over 5000 dollars into our home this month and it's only the 17th and we only have about 1000 to show for it. Life cost fucking money! Was two months behind on the truck payment (1200) and another month already calling for another 6 bills! Then food was over 5 bills so far and utilities 3 bills... gas wtf so far about 2 bills spent on that... and the ganja? well... being a chronic about 3 bills dropped on that too. Shiit it just doesn't stop.

Thank Jah for the opportunity to live lavishly this month. Thank Jah for my relationships and to be able to afford internet to complain on this damn blog that not ONE person other than myself and Jah read.

I really need to get an event going here... As for that trip to Jamaica... there's so much to talk about regarding it. So much came from it in out lives I feel... especially MOM. WTF is all I gotta say!

Till then..